STRETCHING THE HEART WIDE OPEN.
Baby number two is making his grand debut into the world any day now. Our little world is shifting once again as we prepare to make more room for the newest addition to the family.
I have been spending my days running around completing as many errands I can possibly fill my day with. Endlessly cleaning the things that have already been cleaned. Reorganizing, managing appointments, handling business like a boss. Apparently this is what they call "nesting." I've never been too great at sitting around and waiting for anything.
One thing that has struck me recently, is my two year old daughter, and that this is the last few days that she has my full undivided attention before having to share mommy and daddy with her new little brother. We are eager and so excited to have him, yet at the same, I have definitely felt the very bittersweet transition of growth. The obvious growth within my body, the growth within my family, and the growth within me emotionally.
Growing is hard work.
As the belly stretches and keeps on stretching to what can feel like no end, shoving all the organs God knows where, and the bones expand to make room for new life.
THE HEART HAS TO MAKE ROOM TOO.
Thoughts have definitely crossed my mind, "Will I love him as much as I love her?" and "How will I give them both the same amount of attention they both need?" Maybe, it's just all the pregnancy hormones speaking, or maybe these thoughts are the indicators of growth.
While there are bones, ligaments, and brains cells continuing to be formed within my body, I know that the same builder is doing some construction on me as well. Transitions are more than just moving from one place to the next. They are most often painful, uncomfortable, & bitter sweet. Ask any mama, transition during birth is the quickest and most intensely painful phase of the labor process. It is the moment right before the physical break-though, pushing someone forward, and then the first breath is finally taken. Physically speaking, in that moment, the only thing you can do is to give in to the transition process and relax.
Easier said than done, right? Especially if you are not numb to the pain. If you don't give in to the process and relax your body, the stress of tensing causes the pain to be even greater and can cause complications or tears in the body. It is an intense picture of what it takes physically to welcome in new life.
"Just as you do not know the path of the wind and how bones are formed in the womb of the pregnant woman, so you do not know the activity of God who makes all things." Ecc - 11:5
Change is inevitably one of those things we tend to fear and become anxious about because we do not feel in control of our lives. With any season change and transition it requires submission to the process. It requires you to trust, while the carpenters hands surgically and strategically move in to stretch the heart wide open. Growth is essential and fundamental for life to continue. Where there is new life, there is growth. Just like with birth, there is only one uncomfortable way out to keep on growing. The pain of transition is a necessary and natural part of the process. The expansion and stretching have to happen for growth to be possible. Have you ever tried to stop something from growing? Have you ever tried to stop a woman in mid labor? Can you stop a season from changing? It is impossible. It is like trying to change Winter into Summer. Even though there is little to no control in the midst of the growing pains, there is comfort when seasons change and transition is upon you. Discomfort or pain is only momentary, while new life is just around the corner.
"He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also, he has put eternity into man’s heart, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end." Eccl. 3:11
So with these few last days before my final phase of literal transition, I will read my daughter one more book at bedtime, I will hold her a little while longer, and I will check on her one more time before bed. I will give in to the process and let the builder put his hands in me and stretch my heart wide open to make more room in me today. More room to love on the children he has entrusted me with.
Whatever transition you are facing today, receive the carpenters hands and let him do his work as the seasons change and he causes you to grow. Take a deep breath, relax, and watch him stretch your heart wide open.
In what ways do you feel the growing pains of a season change? Do you have indicators in your life of showing signs of transition?